Crazzyy~

Finally exams are over. -phew- somehow i actually studied. :O rare sight. very rare. but whatever goes in my mind ends up with whatever that has to do with her. sejarah, flipping through the pages but in my mind is just HER, HER, her, her.. owhhh, why must it be so hard? to move on, let go. can't get you out of my mind.

exam time, and WHOAH i actually knew the answers. Thank GOD Melanie's sitting next to me. (: i got to sleep. Finally. i dreamt of her. again. in class.. hope i wasn't like mumbling her name. :| not like the last time in Langkawi i sang Zero Gravity in my sleep. :D haha.

after KH exam was over the whole school was like in party mode~ bell rings, and i was like in a water fight alr~ bwahaha. splashed yan yan till she was all wet. lotsa other victims too haha. Diane, WeiEe, Ally, Melanie, Edward, Penny.. didn't splash misa. ): haha. imma evil. XD

Life.

So, hey again. So yeah, exam's over, and I'm free now:) Long time since a post, kinda lazy though. ^^

*rewinds*

Three weeks ago, it was PMR so hada change classes. Angsana-ians school time was Tuesday and Friday. Tuesday, class was 5 Cempaka, and I've gotta say, that.class.is.awesome:)

Damn, i totally regret bringing my cam. >:( the sunset there, was mesmerizing. seriously. I somehow love to just stare at the sky, sunsets, clouds or just the stars i LOVE the sky. So that day's sunset was epic. Kinda like a portrait in the sky:) Melanie somehow decided to skip school, ditch the RIMECA gang? She.is.heartless. Rawrr. Anyways, Tuesday was awesome. Truth or dare, Me, Edward, Elina, Beck, Ally, Alis and Isaac:) never humiliated myself so much. Hada dance some weird dance around Jean, Jing and Penny. TORTURE.

Friday wasn't as fun though. Kinda boring actually. Nothing interesting that day. YAWNNN.

Till the next post:)

Secrets

" I'm lying to the world, pretending to be someone i'm not. but the world actually.. likes it."

everybody's asking the same question. haihh.. just wish they'll stop. i wish i actually had a chance, so tomorrow's the big day! turns out i'm emo-er and emo-er these days.. thank God my sis can un-emo me. most of the time its just thinking of her. somehow, the whole world knows about me and her.. everybody's telling me to let go but i tried, hey, i'm crazy, for you. continued writing my songs since i'm emo-ing. hmm.. nothing really to post about so yeah. bye.

random quote:

ryan: wow.. ur so leng zai for sure kao lui very pro huh?

jumyuen: you more pro.. always kao 6 in 1time.. want me to list out all of them?

ryan: .______.

maybe this time?

i made up my mind. i'm letting go. but honestly, i don't see that happening. never in a billion years. yeah, smile, whats the use of crying? yeah.. i made something for her but she'll accept it? yeah. right. haihhh.. everybody's couple-ing and i'm the only single one. why is it so harddd?

imagine me letting go. and all that i've done has been wasted. maybe i can just like you? i don't know why i like you. its just that i like you. :)

"After all that you just wanna let go?"-melanie.

everybody has troubles letting go right? yeah. helllpp meeee. i needa hang out more with my friends. hope that some girl will just appear in my life.

"i don't want you to avoid me. but i want us to just stay friends. stay in my life?"

choosing a jerk like him over me=bad mistake.

i tried..

"i tried letting go but i just can't. i can't see you without feeling heartbroken. feeling pain. feeling love. :) i sorta let go of the fact that i had a shot to be with you. but yeah. i still like like you. as long as i can see you smiling, hear you laughing, its enough. the sight of you is better. :) if thats true love?"

-ryan

love is, love. :D

"just because he changed his effing hairstyle doesn't mean you can just love him liddat. you needa love him cuz you love him. ."

-ryan

turns out i'm the love guru now. whoahh. thats a first. loving ur suckish. ex because he/she changed his/her hairstyle. is seriously really noob. i'm not falling for that.

wonder if i changed my hairstyle.. hehe. XD