Those Five Days Of Summer In The Rain.

The purple yellows with Spongebob and Matt. 

So, Sports Day was last Friday and guess what? It was a blaaaaaast.

So first, Mel decided to ditch us so Sophia and I went around the school looking for people and then we found Tze-Ning who was foreveralone a little, cause she didn't want to hang out with the photographer 'gang' with all those high-tech lenses and all. So she tagged along and took quite a few pictures! We bumped into a few people and took more pictures of the decor and all. So after quite awhile we sat down where Lex was and a friend of mine was there, you know, the one in the recent post, well things are getting better but I don't know it just seems different somehow. Back to the point. We sat there after a while waiting for the long-awaited marching to start, and once the music started playing, everyone was pretty much on the edge of their seats to watch the house's mascots. Since, this year's theme was animation, so every house had a cartoon character mascot. So yellow, SPONGEBOB and Pikachu. Well, I mean I was looking forward to seeing Spongebob haha. Then red, Angry Birds; blue, Smurfs; and green, Shrek. Whereas Purple's one, which was Mewtwo, looked kinda retarded, no offence, but yeah their marching was really really good. 

Sunrise.

Okay then after awhile, the Uniformed teams' turn to march and everyone was waiting for the champions, Kadet Polis. Then, speeches etc. after that, finally the running started, and we Hang Kasturi-ians were seated next to the Yellows,  so both our cheerleaders (including Jen, Ally, Lex, Alicia, Joanne and Becks) went down to the field and cheered together, I mean competing their cheers against one another. Hahaha how supportive. Well, purple did a really good job and I got to hold the flag but apparenty we were too loud and were blocking the teachers' view so the teacher pms-ed at us and kicked us out. Then we walked to where the decor was, and we had the freedom to cheer as loud as we could! 

Well, I kind of lost my camera, and turns out it was with Alexia and Joanne the whole time. And you know them, once they touch my camera, camwhore. So yeah, not surprised when 20+ pictures were added to the memory and all of them had their faces in them. So, holding the flag, Joanne and I ran like Superman with the flag behind her till we were stopped and asked to respect the flag. Hashtag awkward moment. So the Yellows and the Purples joined forces and cheered for each other and Jen made up this cheer for both the houses... which I can't remember. :( Oh wait, before that we got to take pictures with Spongebob! And Jen, being the ultimate-Spongebob-lover, it was her paradise. I mean, her, in Yellow house, with the SBSP theme and decor.. really a dream come true for her. Plus, she even tried on the suit!

Running around like Superman. 

With Rachel, Joanne, Melissa and Lex.

Sasha's face HAHA

What happens when you lose your camera to Alexia and Joanne.
'Eh, don't just camwhore there okay! Must camwhore with me!'
HAHAHAHA

Guess who was in the suit? :) 

After a few matches, it was time for the prize-giving ceremony, and we were like, 'already?' haha yeah it was too short. So the winner for best decor..... Green with the Shrek theme! They deserved it, a lot. Winner for marching.. Green.. again. This time it should have been either Blue or Purple in my opinion. Then overall winer for the 2012 Taman SEA Sports Day. *drumroll* PURPLE (Y) *dances some weird dance you wouldn't want to see* haha it was pretty cool to be on the field during the ceremony, 'cause its been two years in a row I was up there watching. So the Purples took a huge group photo and Alicia and I were like 'We didn't even do anything and we're still part of it!' hahaha plus, i actually made some friends through the art of camwhoring, thats right. Met Cynthia and Yee Lee who were part of the cheer team hahaha

This shot is really good, whoever who took it. 

Stalker photo oh yeeeah. Hi Jen! 

So then we followed the CF to McDonald's and Mel followed. Like, finally she came. So, Lex took more pictures, camwhored a little more and everyone ate. We were finally able to take our annual Ward family portrait again!  

Messy eater.

Ward/Choi family and le retarded father HAHAHA

:{D

After that Mel, Ziling and I walked over to Ziling's house and we had our little talks on the way. About our little dds eh. Once we reached her house we were trashing her piano, and taught Mel the chorus for Eyes Open. Well, she's getting better! Then we had to rush off since Ziling had piano lessons whereas a had tuition. Moodkillers. 

But well, it was a really epic epic day. Can't wait for the next event, let's see BK '12!

More pictures!

Photogenic to the highest level.

Mom. 

Mr. Jankins. 

I really like the clouds.

All hail the winners for decor, greeeeen.

ps: I gained a wingman today, say hi to Jen! HAHAHA so technically she's my wing-girl. whee.

pps: Ignore the irrelevant title, been addicted to the Joe Brooks song for awhile now haha

'Smiling but we're close to tears, even after all these years'

It's been awhile since I last posted, maybe it was due to the nahidontfeellikeblogging feeling and the endless challenges I've had to face.


So lately, a lot of things have happened. Everything is all messed up and gosh I just want everything to be the same again. Been really tired lately because of all the walking to and fro to school and everywhere else and studies although I'm procrastinating like, to the highest level.

First things first, there's this friend of mine, we used to talk like, everyday. Few things happened and she got mad and somehow we managed to put that aside and not let anything ruin our friendship. She used to (or maybe still does) have an issue with my negative attitude. Well, I've been changing, or at least trying to. Progress, not perfection. But you know, there was this one time I lost part of her project, and she kind of made some indirect tweet saying how someone lacked responsibility and all. So instantly, it came to my mind that she was talking about me. I mean, I wasn't being negative, I just was making sure she wasn't mad at me and being a good friend and all. But no, more stuff happened. After awhile, apparently she thought that I misunderstood every tweet for myself. (That's what I think happened) or something, and started avoiding me. What sucked was that it was only that one time and she's thinking I've been doing it forever.


Plus, every time I join in with a friend's conversation while she's present, she'll just get up and walk away, or just not make a sound. When she was talking to another friend of ours and I came up to her and asked whether she still had her fruits for recess, she just quickly walked away. Being the presumptuous me, I'd go to bed thinking what I did wrong and gosh I think too much sometimes. It sucks that she'd be talking to some other guy all smiles and all and I'm just there dying inside.


I mean, everything is different now. I still remember when we acted all so immature and ruining our friend's conversations with our hyperness. I still remember when we went to the night market for an assignment and once everyone left I was so afraid she'd end up kidnapped alone being a girl walking alone (you know, society nowadays) being paranoid and all, I trusted her and let her walk alone and after awhile I couldn't do it and ran to where she was and walked with her, and Mel kept asking me to make my move. I still remember we made promises that might never even come till like three years. I remember we'd call each other according to our celebrity boyfriend/girlfriend after she was being hyper and kept on saying his name. I remember sending my first morning text to her. I know it seems like I like her, like, like like her. But you know, I've never done these with anyone else, and maybe I do but argh I don't know. Everything feels pretty messed up, especially my feelings. 

I'm not saying this as if I have feelings for her, but she meant a lot to me, as a friend. So yeah, I'm really sorry. Whatever I did, whatever I said, however I acted. Please, just talk to me again. Please, just let everything be the same again. I'm really really sorry. Please, just don't judge me by the stupid things I say, the negative attitude I have. Just let things be back to normal again. Ugh as if she'd be here reading this, as if she ever reads this. 


So please, forget everything, I know I've made a lot mistakes, and by that I mean a lot. Forgive me. Let everything be back to normal again, forget the past and move on. Please. I know that I may not have been the perfect friend with my attitude, and gosh I was stupid. I know you might not have been talking to me for the past two weeks, but I hope you're happy, whatever you're doing, I hope everything is better with you and him and yeah its like, I haven't talk to you in ages and its killing me. Okay I'm done. 

For The First Time, The Script

This week, I want to thank The Script for writing songs so heartbreaking and meaningful. Lately I've been listening to For The First Time, a lot. Maybe because well, the lyrics are like exactly what I'm going through, you know. Somehow their songs pull the heartstring so hard, and its like they know exactly what people go through and they are like the only bands who don't sing about sex and drinking and all. 

'And we don’t know how we got into this mess. Is it God's test. Someone help us ‘cause we’re doing our best. Trying to make it work, but man these times are hard'

Hoping that next week, will be a better week. Hope that everything will be better. Guess that I'll just have to hold on to my faith, yes its definitely God's test. Hold on to that little anchor of hope, maybe everything will be better. :)

*on the plus side, Jen and Isaac know everything. Pssh, I have written evidence for Jen and it was better than her interrogating me. :c a

'When things go wrong, we just go on' -- Pixie Lott

I had this dream a few nights ago, a freaking unreal dream, about me actually getting to be with her. Which is, pretty weird, cus I had never dreamt of her, EVER. Plus, I also woke up feeling a little heartsick nowing that no matter how much I'll try, I'll end up getting friendzoned anyway. But then I thought,  maybe, just maybe that it wouldn't hurt to try?

I can remember it clearly. We were in school and teacher (somehow my History tuition teacher ._.) gave us a series of projects/assignments, and she brought us around. Oh, and the best part is, in the dream the school was a mall! So first assignment, teacher brought us all to the bookstore, and she ordered us to pick a book and do a report on it. So I walked around the tiny little bookstore, but I couldn't find any interesting books (cus guess what, it was a children's bookstore) Then everyone started leaving the store and only a few people, her and her little gang, and myself were left in there. As I was about to give up on picking a book and just randomly getting one, she whispered to me (cus teacher was there) to just take her book. I can even clearly remember the title. (I won't reveal it cus if I do, she'll know cus she suggested me to read it and it was like one of the first things I talked to her about when I first met her) and she pulled me in so close, so close that her whisper was a kiss. A freaking kiss. And I could actually feel it. 

Then after that I kind of blurred out but I remember teacher asking us to gather in the store again and she gave us another assignment. You know in those biology lessons they'll ask you to rear an animal and you'll have to act as their parents or something, that was what she asked us to do. So, since we were already together from the first assignment we got paired up. (no complaining though) while teacher was explaining, we had our own little conversation going, about random stuff I unfortunately don't remember. Then the best part. When we were leaving the classroom-bookstore, something that'll happen mostly in those cliché romance movies where the guy falls for his girl best friend and he tells her but he get rejected and the girl tells him that its better for him to stay as friends but the girl realizes that she made a mistake and starts falling for him and she just holds his hand and tells him she regrets saying no and stuff like that. (I watch too much movies) Yeah, THAT happened. As we were walking out, she just took my hand and held it as we were walking side by side. You know in those movies they'll also have those lines like "What about us?",  haha I actually said that. I don't know what she replied but I didn't care, I just wanted to hold her hand and not let go, wanting that moment to last forever. Then.. I woke up to the sound of Ziling's call. Uuuugh. 

Waking up kind of sucked because 1, I know it will never happen. 2, even if I do tell her I'll get rejected cus she's fallen for some other guy she just went on a 'date' with. I mean, I'm glad she's happy, but I can't help but feel kind of down. I want to be happy too. 

Thinking back, a friend (whose had a past with her) took the advantage of her not coming few weeks ago and told me his feelings for her. He told me that she rejected his confession, but he said he'll wait, even if was the last thing he does. I felt so crappy that day, cus all I could do was listen, brokenheartedly, knowing I'll never be more than just a best friend to her. 

Nowadays, its so hard for me to just share my feelings to my friends, cus Mel, Ziling, Carmen and Ally are all in different classes, and Isaac, well I haven't told him cus she's pretty close to him too. So yeah,  Jen if you're reading this, I have decided to tell you, finally. *yay* 

So today I'm dedicating this post to Taylor Swift, thank you for writing songs that are so relatable and heartbreaking, thank you for your music that's always always on replay and always being there for me. Thank you, Taylor. You're my inspiration.

I have always wondered what it's like to have a Taylor Swift video love story.


 

Okay I better stop adding gifs otherwise this post is gonna be freaking laggish.

-Tumblr

-Who You Are,  Jessie J.

Inspiration.

And now I'm fully believing that its not just a crush.

Roots before branches.

Holidays are here, but somehow I'm not feeling as carefree as I'm supposed to be. Maybe its because of the fact that I'm stuck at home. So, here I am blogging. 

Just last Friday we had our Teacher's Day, and overall it was pretty good, didn't have to face the boredom of teacher's playing station games cus I was helping with the CF sketch! Oh, and the backstage of the school hall is really cool, just that day Marvin and I climbed up the ladder that leads to the place where they control the lights and all and there's a room with a huge ventilator and a switch with a button that makes you go: 'Ooh what does THIS button do?' yeah it was THAT cool. 

Oh, the performances were really good! Especially the CF's sketch and band (especially that haha) and of course Matt and Ethan's breakdancing. So, if you missed it, here's a little peak of it, 

So wrong in many ways. 

Had lunch in KFC with the gang and you know Alexia, typical camwhore took like 1000000 photos. Hey we even took pictures with Upin and Ipin! (the picture not the people in costume haha) Plus, I got to add more gifs to my Gifboom too, from Jen's little dancing to Lex's retarded face. 

Then, Mel and Vanessa came in and we walked all the way from KFC (the one in SS2) to Taman Megah. Well, thanks to Mel and her phobia of crossing the road, we almost got hit several times, and it was so hard to walk the roads wthout her screaming. How I wish I took a picture of that though. Once we reached Secret Recipe, everyone was still there! (thank God) so we ate, took more pictures and took advantage of the wifi there. I managed to show Carmen and Ziling the Bong Cheon Dong ghost comic! Its so fun to scare them, haha Ziling almost cried! I feel so proud of myself. 

In conclusion, Teacher's day was really epic, next, Sports Day!

Back again.

Exams are finally OVER. *flies so high that I reach the moon* Finally after one month of studying, it is over. I can catch up with my Glee, and watch the movies I've missed out. Finally. And now, whatever I studied is all slowly creeping out my head. Oh, and I also created a Gifboom, its quite fun actually hmm.


So, everything's getting better, I guess. We're talking now like nothing has ever happened, and you have no idea how happy I am because of that. Now, I'm the one she turns to whenever something happens, and she knows that I'm always going to be there for her, and I'm over the moon because of that. I mean, even if we aren't together or something, I'm glad that we're like this. I've noticed that every Taylor Swift song reminds me of her, somehow Ours, in particular, knowing she's such a big fan. I'm just, really happy.


Bad news, Glee season 3 is ending this week, and seriously I'm going to bawl my eyes out knowing that I may not be able to see Quinn or Santana after graduation, and the fact that Brittany cries. Thinking of watching 'Goodbye' with Renee and we'd both cry a river.

Currently addicted to the Glee cover of Grouplove's Tongue Tied, sigh they're finally accepted. Goosebumps throughout that whole scene.

"I loved you then I'd love you now"

'Don't leave me tongue tied, don't wave no goodbye'

Jia Wen kind of influenced me to go fanguying (guy version of fangirling) about Dianna Agron. Gosh she's so pretty. Presenting the beautiful Dianna and Heather.

Died after seeing her do the wink.

Okay my shows are calling me, have a good day *:] Got my first A today!

Under pressure.

So how's everything? My Friday didn't turn out too well, guess I've caught 3 Angsana's little bad mood. Exams are coming, and I have to say, I have started studying two weeks ago! Personal record. I think PMR is nerd-ifying me. So yeah, I'm pretty stressed about my exams, and when I'm studying I can't concentrate and either get distracted or fall asleep. Yes, I have a short attention span. Plus, my mom is really pressuring me to get good grades since I got 7As for UPSR. She says that if I get strait As I can get a freaking iPhone. Oh fudge.


My whole reference book is too colourful with all the highlights. I feel so proud. Dear exams, please just be nice to me. 

I'm glad that Jia's not mad at me, but somehow I don't believe it. Sigh. Me and my negativity. I'll leave that story for next time. 

If I could be your superman, I'll fly you to the stars and back again

Ever get the times, when your crush gets in a mood, and you start blaming yourself for it. Yeah today was one of those days. Sometimes I even wonder why I care, ugh. I hate it that she can't notice me like how she sees the other guy who barely knows her . I hate it that she can't see pass my negativity and that it annoys her too much at times. I hate it that even though I've known her for like only a short period of time , its like we've known each other forever. I hate it that my heart did a backflip when I was walking with her that day. I hate it that it hurts so much whenever I have to pick the other guy as a topic so that we won't be having awkward little conversations. I hate it that I think its my fault when she's mad. Maybe I care too much. Ugh.