She's beautiful, it's true.

To you, somewhere out there, if you're reading this, hopefully.

Never say you're not good enough. You are pretty, talented, kind, friendly, you are always there for me when I need someone and I am really glad. You are beautiful, okay, but you don't realize it. You're definitely someone worth appreciating. You're you.

It hurts to see you so insecure at times. You tell me you're not pretty enough, or that you're not your ideal weight. Just ignore all these things people say and don't let them get into you.

You really are special. I mean, you make singing look really good and when you play the guitar, it's definitely fanguy worthy. Haha.

And I'm sorry if I didn't help you much sometimes when you're down or troubled. I can really suck sometimes. But I am here for you, no matter what.

And I do pray for you often. Like for Him to be with you when you feel like the world has crashed in, and you would turn to Him too.

And lastly, remember, hope. I know you think you've lost it, but no. There is hope in the littlest things in life, and it really is a beautiful sight. Watch the subset, now that's a great example.

So yeah, I really really want everything to be okay for you, and that you do end up getting what you really deserve, to be happy.

:)

And I vow to at least make an effort to put a smile on your face.

Distractions.

So last week during youth, Paulynn shared about how materialistic people can be, and how they put those things first and not God. I really liked that sharing, somehow.

First, she showed us some pictures in her iPad. So there was this 17 year-old guy from China. He sold his kidney for USD 2200 for an iPad. Just an iPad, an he let the doctors take it out. Crazy.

Then there was this guy from the U.S. he worked in some financial company and was involved in a fraud case. He cheated his company and now he made the company lose at least 2 billion USD. All because he wanted to gamble.

Then there was this woman. She looks flawless, but guess what? She is 55, years old and she had to go through 52 plastic surgeries in order to achieve how Barbie-fied she is now.

The things people do to get stuff, really some are just plain ridiculous. Like, for an electronical gadget, or money, or look eternally youthful.

She tells us about how sirens are like. Sirens, they are practically like mermaids of the sea, in Greek mythology. As the sailors pass bye all they will hear is the sound of their beautiful voices, what's deceiving is that they only sing what they want you to hear. The sailors get too captivated and start sailing towards them instead and guess what? They attack the sailor and eat them up.

Like these gorgeous mermaidy creatures. They're sirens actually.

  

But there was this one guy, Jason. He was this noble Greek warrior, son of the King Aelous. He wanted to hear what the sirens could tell, as according to myth, if you manage to survive and not succumb to their calls, it makes you stronger, and wiser.

He put wax into his ears, and tied himself on a ship's pole so that the voices may not get into him, and he ordered his crew to put wax too. Even though how hard it may have been, he managed to do it, and it did make him stronger.

I'm not saying that we should al put wax into our ears and listen to evil-mermaid creatures sing. I'm just saying that we should not be too distracted by all these riches and materials, and put God first in our eyes.

She shared also how much she wants to go to business school and she doesn't want to work her current job at the financial sector. She has been applying and well, it has been hard for her, to sell herself as she is and not what people wanted her to be. Her friend helped her with her résumés and she really couldn't believe it. Most of what was written didn't even describe who she is, and she didn't like it. She was like: 'I really can't do this, this is not me. At all' She asked her friend and he told her how it wouldn't harm to just do it once, and after that he can just walk down the streets and just be her for the rest of her life. She really has been praying, a lot, and well please add her in your prayers? Pray for her to make the right decisions and for her not to succumb to all these bad things that she has to sneak her way in to be accepted.

I really liked that lesson. :)

Anyways, my piano exam is next week. Oh the joy. My scales and pieces are still pretty rough and I don't have the motivation to practice! Pray for me too yeah?

Okay then I shall try writing more, as my level is still pretty low. :(

The Life of Alex Morrison shall continue soon. :)

#3, Runaway train.

Alex wasn't sure whether he was still feeling the way he was for Nicole anymore. It just, felt so distant, so foreign now. He wasn't sure what he was to her. He pretty much lost his feeling, you could say. Although she talked to him again, without explaining what really happened. He still felt so far away, all he wanted to be her friend again.

Nicole had once told him her secret, of liking someone else. Lance Crawford was the name. He was the school athlete, and girls will go all crazy over him.

There was this once, as he was walking home, he had to take the train. With his iPod in hand, he bought some food from the stalls right outside the station. As he was walking, there she was. Waiting for the train's arrival, looking pretty as ever. That caught him by surprise, he never expected her to walk home. His heart was.. beating hard. Anyone who saw his face probably saw him all flushed, all red and walk away from him.

But then he saw her with him, The Lance Crawford walking along by her side. His heart dropped. Like, his heart was made of glass and a hammer just came crashing down anyway. He somehow felt more drained, more embarrassed. Like, what of they saw him or something. As they were entering the train, he debated whether to go through the same door. He then finally made a decision to just go through the next door. What, the queue was long anyway.

He didn't want to disturb them, so in the train, he kept a safe distance from them. They were sitting, while he was standing at the door, eagerly waiting the the train to pull over to the next station already. Funny thing was, as he saw them, he felt so crushed that he changed the song he was listening to to a sad one. Hah.

He looked over at them. They were talking, laughing and all. The worst part, she looked really happy. Like, her smile, it wasn't any kind of happiness he's ever seen with her, she really was... happy.

That crushed him a little, but he realized, he should let her go. Things WILL get better that way, and if loving someone means having their happiness as a priority then so be it. He didn't want to love her anymore, he just.. wanted to feel the same way they were a few months back- happy. He wanted the both of them to get back the closure they had. He realized, that he let his feelings get in the way and well, that started everything. He had to let go.

He felt like a kid, who just let the wind blow his kite away, just really well, down.

He remembered what Melanie had told him before. 'If you love someone, let them go. If they don't come back to you, then it's not meant to be. If they do, then well, that's what they call love.'

He didn't want to think of this anymore. Well, he just left this whole Nicole situation behind and approached her as a friend with baby steps.

He definitely could feel better with Natasha right?