1 angsana. trying to noe me classh.. ^^

err.. 5 weeks of hell already.. hell gate opening tomorrow.. -scream- my new class.. 1 ANGSANA.. i probably noe almost all of the ppl in it.. since i'm the treasurer.. its hard work. the best thing bout skul is the CF~~ haha.. lemme try to test myself bout the classhh.. LOL.

Ammar. the sick perverted malay guy. wow.. he's prefect somemore.. he noe all those chinese bad words.. wah.. everytime sure scold something sick. LOL. sit behind wui lee.. VERY sick. VERY VERY VERY sick. the whole class gets crazy cuz of him.. likes alicia, tan jean? both.. eh, make ur mind la.. still, LOL!!!

Abang. sit in the same van as me. prefect. ummm.. okay la.. quite quiet.. sit next to ammar.. alicia say he look a bit like kah lok.. actually.. he does.. hmm.. malay version of kah lok?

Adam. prefect.. he actually looks like he's crying.. LOL.. wui lee keep askin him to stop crying! haha..

Adam Ally. the tall guy.. weng loong saw him didn zip his zip.. LOL.. he was like.. " OH MY GAWD!!!!" we all laughed at him..hehe.. evil?

Alicia. ex-YC-er. last time 6Y de. same rumah sukan with me. deal with her to bring my phone next friday on house training.. ammar's ex-crush. last time std 1 & 2 same class. tuition also.

Carmen. ex-YC-er. last time err.. 6U.. she last time could go home early cuz she gotta -feeling- XP oh, i mean a headache. heng! me and alicia begged her to bring us along. TT

zi ling rebek tze ning sophia hui san. wow. girl group. all hang out together. all sit together. all chat together. hey. zi ling promised something for my birthday. she said it was pink! O.O pink?! rebek promised to draw something?

another gurl gang, ching yueng jing wen ji jing bao ping. dude, crazy? LOL. barely talk to them.. so.. yeah.. oh, isyad.. trying to "kao" ching yueng? XD

yi khai and edward. both ex-YC-ers. hehe. yik khai my doggie~ love to bully him.. edward.. my "owner".. i'm his doggie.. pity me..

weng loong and yue kwang. 6C-ians. always say bad words. LOL. now ammar copy them? die..

penny. jokes around with us. ammar's new target? hoho..

zi yoong.. fat pomelo? LOL. my stupid ketua tingkatan. look more like STD 4 more than form 1. big fat pomelo~

anyways, damn lazy to do the rest of the classh.. bad memory? i hate/ love my class. so much~ can't wait for CF camp~ in genting.. so cool!! boring teachers. skul ain't fun la. new stories next time. see ya~

am i in love or is this another crush?

"will you catch me if i fall?"

current theme.. yea.. i guess i'm falling.. and falling.. and falling... no end... will you catch me? will you? damn.. why did i fall for her again? whats wrong with me? great.. i promised myself.. its not gonna happen anymore.. but i fell again... for..her.. arrrghh... whats should i do? i just fell.. instantly.. without looking.. again.. and then.. my heart tore.. stabbed so deep.. broken into a million pieces.. but i kinda feel good bout it.. i wanna feel... love.. again.. i wanna know that someone loves me.. i wanna feel the pain.. and yea.. i'm still crying like a pathetic baby after the "first break up".. i don't really bother about it anymore.. but it still hurts.. yea.. but u gotta let go.. of the dream.. i'm living for my new dream.. its just the point weather.. she'll be in it.. my life.. as what i'm dreaming of i guess... what i need.. is her.. does it matter? maybe to her i'm just invisible.. i'm nothing.. does it hurt? yea.. like a knife stabbed in ur heart.. noe how that feels like?

i just couldn't help it.. i promised myself i won't but i still did it? -sigh- what a good job ryan! damn damn damn... will you will you? i'm so sorry.. it was like automatic.. staring at her.. like it was the brightest star.. in the world.. my world.. then it was like i heard her laugh.. -sigh- again.. i fell.. in love.. i fell for her.. instantly.. so yea.. will i get it? miracles can happen right? so i'm like " everytime you smile, i smile... and everytime you shine, i'll shine for you.." i'm shining.. like her... i want to.. its just that.. is it bright enough? will she catch me?

yea just broke up with ex err few months ago? yea.. still remember all the memories.. it hurts deep.. but i guess i've let go.. "i'll never leave you, ever.. i swear." but she left. i was emo enough that day.. to be like that? i cried for days and nights.. cried myself to sleep.. yea.. but i had my sis' advice.. serene, ash.. yeap.. they knew how i felt.. so they helped a lot.. "i won't love you long, i will leave you, we wil break up.." you won't know how that felt. hey, i moved on.. yea.. new hopes.. dreams.. life.. maybe in my new skul.. i'll get her.. the her i was talking about like almost the whole post. XD thinking of confessing? scratch that.. it ain't gonna happen.. but i like prepared a text for her.. confessing to her.. so yea... u get what i mean..

so no more ex-ing.. i wanna live my life for her.. i wanna give her my heart.. would you take mine? will you catch me? will you notice me? will you? stuck to jump then fall.. cuz the lyrics is exactly what is happening.. in my life.. one last time.. "everytime you smile, i smile.. and everytime you shine, i'll shine, and everytime you hear, baby i'll show you..." just jump to me.. just jump. i like you? i love you? am i in love or is this another crush? XD

is it bright enough?

would you take it?

would u live it?

thats it la.. my post... haha.. will continue with langkawi post next time.. XP lol.. i love you~

shining brightly~ ryan